Frustration

So I'm getting a little frustrated on my logo. I worked on it at home and spent a lot of time on it, and it still doesn't look right. I really don't like the pen tool. I remember now why I never used it. I hope I can master it soon.

I'm still unsure of what color I want my logo to be. I'm thinking about making it blue.
I guess I should just work on my letterhead and worry about cleaning up my logo later, but I can't stand to have something unfinished and move on to something else. Hopefully things will start to come together soon.

 I feel like this right now.

Hopefully after I make my logo/letterhead I will feel like this.